Once Bread Becomes Toast, It Can Never Go Back...

made me laugh

Wed, 28 Jan 2009 06:16:25 GMT

for the hell of it.

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I refuse to do good

Wed, 28 Jan 2009 05:44:52 GMT

So recently i'm in a CVS in the mall grabbing some stuff with a friend. there is a group of teens in front of me being loud and... well, teens. but then they start intentionally knocking things down and ramming eachother into aisles and just causing some trouble. i know a few of the people who work there, so i decide to say something. i told them to cut it out and to stop acting like they have no sense. apparently i scared them. they were wondering if i was going to "kick they're asses". i said i didn't want to and that they should walk away. they kept asking me if i was going to fight, and i just kept saying walk away. they did and i went about with the rest of my shopping and told my friend at the register. when talking to my friend i dropped an "f-bomb" cuz i was still pretty ticked. upon exitingi was stopped by mall security and questioned about the swearing and the teens. apologized for the swearing and told them about the ruckus the kids were causing and what i did. i'm then approached by a manchester police officer(who just so happen to be some of the biggest douchbags in the greater hartford area) apparently the teens filed a report against me saying i threatened them. i tell the cop what happened and he gives me some crap about there being 4 of them vs. just me and since our stories conflict he has to believe them. i motion to my friend who saw the whole thing and he says "i can't believe their story because they're with you."
"But the teens were with eachother and you're counting it as 4 against one! why the hell can't i have someone in my corner!? just because some kids get scared because i'm larger than them!? i just told them to stop screwing around and now i'm being interrogated because of the way that i look!"
Apparrently he didn't like that. he starts yelling at me and telling me he can arrest me for threatening others. well, you never win an argument with the manchester police, they have quotas to meet. fricken assholes. so he just gives me a fricken ticket for public disturbance. i now owe $103. great. wasn't bad enough that i'm losing my job. so now i'm reluctant to do shit for anyone anymore. teach your kids to leave everyone alone. someone having trouble getting somewhere, let them struggle, heaven forbid you try to do what you were taught was the right thing. you can only do it if you are under 6 feet and bench half your weight. other than that you'll get ticketed or worse.
fucking manchester cops.

enjoy.

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Thu, 22 Jan 2009 05:06:18 GMT

how's it going, all. life just sent me a few curve balls that i can't quite hit. as you know, circuit city is kaput. and with it so is my job. fun times. now i can start suffering and write that symphony (who knows the reference?). plus side, already had an interview for another job, but i doubt i'll get it. i think i was too friendly and inviting. or some silly shit like that. small recap:
x-mas was great
b-day was great
sister-in-law and kids should be gone by feb 2nd
got a new phone and number (860)-595-9253. enjoy. would love to hear from you.
been pretty depressed lately.

that's about it.

cuz i said i would

Mon, 27 Oct 2008 02:05:28 GMT

So, i saw this before the end of the run, but lacking any kind of drive i didn't get the thing on til now.

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made me laugh

Mon, 27 Oct 2008 02:01:50 GMT

Anger...

Tue, 25 Mar 2008 18:18:42 GMT

...is all i have.

Tue, 19 Feb 2008 03:32:59 GMT

i'm tired. for some reason every customer i had drained more and more energy out of me. "no, sir. they have not invented a wireless dvd player yet." "there is no difference between 1080p and hi-def, because 1080p is hi-def." i feel like i have nothing left. my eyes feel like i've been crying all day, but i haven't shed a single tear.

i also have to deal with a new manager. this will be the fifth one since i started working here four months ago. i've also been told that he is looking to see which employees he can get rid of and replace with people he used to work with. i can only assume that this is because he won't have to remember too many new names.

i made a visit to the webster theater last night. i met some of the new staff. all of them are capable and fun. a few of the older folks are still there, however, and they didn't disappoint me either. one of the girls that worked the door was forced to defend herself against a patron and ended up busting the patrons' face open with a nice right cross to the eye. spectacular.

i'm now sharing a Good Humor Strawberry Shortcake ice cream bar with my cat. when it is finished i will go to bed.

goodnight america, it's great to be back.

have fun

Fri, 30 Nov 2007 15:30:19 GMT

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Sat, 17 Nov 2007 04:01:26 GMT

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i'm in some kind of kool-aid rut. i think i need to get some soon.

wednesday

Thu, 15 Nov 2007 02:31:38 GMT

So today started out with a fantastic workout. if you ever need to work your upper body, try raking wet leaves through tall grass for a few hours. i could go for a massage right about now.

i heard a line today that made me think.

"Are you such a fucking loser, that you can't even tell when you've won?"

i really don't know how to feel about this line, but for some reason it hit me kinda hard. kinda really hard, lol.
well, i get another day off tomorrow. all should be well by then.

for those who needed more

Tue, 13 Nov 2007 15:51:58 GMT

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good morning

Tue, 13 Nov 2007 15:08:04 GMT

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Fri, 02 Nov 2007 06:01:04 GMT

i've been finding it increasingly difficult to hide my emotions recently. to the point that i even scared the district manager with a glance. many were impressed. however, i am not nearly as happy about it. i feel like i may be pressured into things i'm not ready for. i know i'm not ready for them, and i have no idea how to handle these situations.
this could just be me complaining. what do i know. comments are screened from now on. just for me.

woot!!

Mon, 22 Oct 2007 22:22:54 GMT

this is for stephen.

look here if you dare.

damn, i thought i hid well.

Sat, 20 Oct 2007 05:16:04 GMT

The rules are easy, just post 6 things that recently made you happy! Then tag 6 people and force them to post this meme on their LJs.

1. the rain(now if there wereonly some lightning, then i'd be in business)

2. the sound of ice cracking in my water

3. the fantastic customers i've been having recently

4. the thought of getting my hair cut(i'm trying to get some photo documentation to torture you guys with)

5. the new friends i've made this year

6. the old friends that remind me why i love them.

if you haven't been tagged, consider it done.

check it

Fri, 19 Oct 2007 18:15:22 GMT

this is what my friend did. i love my friends, they make me badass.

this is wrong

Wed, 10 Oct 2007 00:42:49 GMT

but it feels so right.

And now a message from the bees...

Wed, 10 Oct 2007 00:28:02 GMT

lol

Fri, 05 Oct 2007 15:02:32 GMT

this gave me a much needed chuckle.

look at the pretty pictures

Fri, 05 Oct 2007 14:24:05 GMT

yep.....

Fri, 05 Oct 2007 03:14:44 GMT

so, i'm trying to figure out what the hell is going on with me. i've been getting really angry recently due to thethings people have been saying about me. thanks for insulting me, good to know i could count on you. this will have a lasting effect on my actions for the rest of the faire run. if i don't seem too talkative, this is why. now see what i will look like after the run.

Wed, 03 Oct 2007 03:50:09 GMT

Musical Magic 8 Ball
Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle.
Say the following questions aloud, and press play.
Use the song title as the answer to the question.

NO CHEATING.

1. How does the world see me?
"Stronger" - Kanye West. i like that answer

2. Will I have a happy life?
"Rakuen (Paradise)" - Trigun sdtk. wow, i look forward to it.

3. What do my friends really think of me?
"Blood and Thunder" - Trigun sdtk. that can be both a good or bad thing, but still unusually accurate.

4. Do people secretly lust after me?
"Fiddle and Drum" - A Perfect Circle. wow, are people that conflicted?

5. How can I make myself happy?
"Stand By Me" - Temptations. i'm loving this meme.

6. What should I do with my life?
"Running Up That Hill" - Placebo. i guess i'll just stay the course.

7. Will I ever have children?
"Gingerbread Coffin" - Rasputina. ok, i had a feeling they might be like this, but i was also kinda hoping...

8. What is some good advice for me?
"3 Libras" - A Perfect Circle. indeed.

9. How will I be remembered?
"Mars, Bringer of War" - Holst, Elgar. i don't know if i want to be remembered for that.

10. What is my signature dancing song?
"Valla al Flamenco" - the Black Mages. well, if you hear the song, you'd want to dance too.

11. What do I think my current theme song is?
"Kasmire" - Led Zepplin. Rock On!!!! \m/

12. What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
"Rain" - Yoko Kano. well, my life can't seem that bad, can it?

13. What song will play at my funeral?
"Clarion Call" - Falconer. badass!

14. What type of men/women do you like?
"Counting Bodies Like Sheep to the Rythm of the War Drums" - A Perfect Circle. i have no idea what this means.

15. What is my day going to be like?
"Portals of Light" - Falconer. that doesn't seem too promising.

Mon, 24 Sep 2007 22:10:03 GMT

For some reason i'm finding it difficult to trust people with my feelings. don't be offended, but i think i just can't divulge any information about myself. at least nothing emotionally. i apologize if that may make me seem a little cut off from everyone. maybe this will just be a short time thing. we'll see.

but at least i know one thing...

... a gopher moat won't stop a bear.

all thecool kids are doing it, and now i am.

Mon, 24 Sep 2007 12:52:48 GMT

go ahead, have fun with it. try to surprise me, i'm in the mood to be surprised.

1. Do you have a tattoo?
2. How old are you?
3. Are you single or taken?
4. Fish?
5. Do you dream in colour?
6. Ever seen a corpse?
7. How about them hipsters?
8. How did we meet?
9. What's your philosophy on life and death?
10. If you could do anything with me, and have no one know, what would it be?
11. Do you trust the police?
12. Do you like musicals?
13. What is your fondest memory of me?
14. If you could change anything about yourself what would it be?
15. Would you cheat?
16. What are you wearing?
17. Have you ever peed in a pool?
18. Would you hide evidence for me if I asked you to?
19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
20. Which do you prefer - short or long hair?
21. What's your favorite day of the week?
22. What's your favorite color?
23. If you could bring back anyone that has passed, who would it be?
24. Tell me one interesting/odd fact about you?
25. What was your first impression of me?
26. Have you ever done drugs?
27. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

Wed, 19 Sep 2007 18:40:38 GMT

So, i realize that i've just been prolonging actually posting into this thing by putting in small clips to entertain and draw attention away from what is really going on with me. i don't know if i'm going to actually post anything of any major signifigance now, or anytime soon. i do feel, however, that if you are actually willing to read this in the first place that i should at least say something worth your time. unfortunately... i really don't know what to say.

Now i can either find something of interest to discuss on this now drawn outpost, or just find more and possibly exciting ways to draw it out. or i can just end it right where i...